take my pain away

Saturday, February 24, 2007

...why...
why
...
why is everyone saying something ... tat i have already done ... in vibrant ... the last few sermons ... why ... do they have to tell me... of myself... of my actions...saying tat wat i do is correct... telling me wat is love... loyalty ... sharing ... i keep seeing the ppl around me so happy ... i feel so painful... i still feel no joy inside... it still feels empty... not even if faith is by my side ... not jolynn... not dorcas... not larissa ... not eric ... not jospeh... not trinity... not anybody... i need to find ... tat ear... tat will listen to it... my pain... wipe my tears... i do not care... wat u ppl will say ... i have no choice anymore...it hurts...i am losing it again... FUCK ...the pain is coming back again... when will it ever stop... argg....

1:34 AM

this pain is killing me.



Saturday, February 17, 2007

i got a award... a bag wif the corn flakes box as design ... i love it though... it looks so much like a first aid kit inside ... joseph sux!!! haha jkjk ... it is just not me anymore... i am getting cheerful again... feel normal again... feeling the value go up again... must wait for stabilization ... haha ... can any1 understand wat i say ? haha... i still cant stop having nonsensical talk... still need sum time to be better... looks like i still have to go to the docs to settle sum stuff abt myself...super lazy to talk abt myself ... and it is late ... gud nite...

1:05 AM

this pain is killing me.



Friday, February 16, 2007

big day ... busy day ... lame day ... haiz ... the endless cycle of things ... find the cause n u will get your results ... it is just ... are u willing to do it ... to look thru time n find the fault ... or be ignorant ?

11:59 AM

this pain is killing me.



Tuesday, February 13, 2007

boring .... still at my com... whole day... valentine is 2morrow ... to bad i cannot get tat sum1 to go out wif me ... haiz... need to go school n study i think.... owell ... do something else then ... gonna do sum 'shopping' for Friday nite... which face should i use ... the pissed or sian ... or cheerful .... or shrouded ... still cant decide ... i just have to put it up to the man sitting upstairs then .... let him decide for me... ok old man? haha... hope i dun blow up >.,<

9:29 PM

this pain is killing me.



after so long of wait

choices again ... i hate making choices...

12:52 PM

this pain is killing me.



i should start making my moves ... things i wanted to do but have not done so ... i know wat i am going to do will work out ... hehe ... simple trust n simple faith will make it work out ... i just know it ... i just need to be motivated and more focus into it ... it is no slacking matter ...

11:28 AM

this pain is killing me.