Tuesday, September 30, 2008
girls...
Saturday 25 October – Sunday 2 November 2008
go beach have fun u wan? after your exam le that time...
can? if can then book a day(s) wif me over it pls... u ppl discuss when to have it in the week XD ... time to have fun XD haha
4:22 PM
this pain is killing me.
Monday, September 29, 2008
it hurts... it really hurts... my madness is consuming me again... can i kill you... i keep seeing blood on my hands now...and to think you even said it seems like a poem when you read it.... the rage is building ... i want to unleash it on you... no one understand it rite? the price of my sanity and insanity... i really feel like killing someone... the look of myself... in the mirror.. is no longer me... it is madness that is shown there... although... no one can see it... the twisted side of me... daggers... knifes... all these .. all in my hands....wanting to drink some blood... i am
THIRSTING FOR BLOOD...
3:52 PM
this pain is killing me.
Friday, September 26, 2008
my lunch ... very filling XD this only cost $3.30.
now SERIOUSLY very full...
come here to say something actually...
my wisdom tooth is coming out... good thing it does not hurt(yet)
another name for wisdom is 3rd molar. people have space for them to grow... some dont ... good thing mine has space. my top right 3rd molar is growing out. i can feel it with my tongue... usually people grow one wisdom too at a time but in my case, i have 2 growing out. the bottom right wisdom tooth is coming out as well.. that in time will be a little problem cuz it seem a little crooked. now that 2 of my 4 are growing... when is the other 2 gonna grow? lets hope that it will be during/after the army that is come out. XD
oh and i came here to say this as well.
i am reading this book called personal identity, inside there is something very interesting. it ask of you about a thing called self.there is a guy... he goes through a teleporter, appears on mars after 3 mins... it remember your body, then on the other side uses this blue print to create a you... so u die and live after 3 mins(teleport)
there is a modification to the machine... now... he goes in again... but this time he feels himself still there and he tot it was spoilt ... he asks and they said it was successful... just that there is a replica of u there ... while u are here and the you here will die in the next few days... you even get to talk to your replica...
now imagine this... talking to you yourself when you yourself is not you ... puzzling? it is the thing about identity here... identity is you but when there is more than 1 of you... what is your identity... that is the main question raised here that really is entertaining me... the paradox of the ans sure is interesting...
4:14 PM
this pain is killing me.
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
will you forget me when that time come? darkness is creeping up on me again. i cannot live my days not seeing the blades in my hands ... the blood on my hand... the ecstasy of pain. i do not want to hurt anyone. imagine living in the world where u may suddenly forget who you are and that you have become a devil that killed people. the pain is just too much to hold... those who know... my condition is getting worse... but i am broke... and i do not want to see a doctor... i do not even know if i am lying or not... the sheer insanity tears me apart... i feel like i am living a lie...
my bipolar delusions really eats me up... i am getting paranoid... paranoia is eating me up... looking at people make me think if they are going to betray me soon. it looks as if everyone is going to betray me ... it hurts... i do not want to kill... once is enough... i do not want that to happen again... please...
5:25 PM
this pain is killing me.
Saturday, September 20, 2008
I shall do the quiz requested by pancy
The first person to tag/ pass you is?
*pancy
Your relationship with him/her?
*friend.
Your five impression of him/her?
*Cute, friendly, fun, interesting,(bugs me to do this).
The most memorable thing he/she had done for you?
*the beach
The most memorable thing he/she had said to you?
*your blog skin very nice
If he/she become your lover, you will...?
*i wont mind XXDDD
If he/she become your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be?
*-dunno... i hardy know her,,,
If he/she become your enemy, you will...?
*tease her till she is back to being my friend.
If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be?
*not know well of each other
The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is?
*wack her head
Your overall impression of him/her is?
*nice person fun to talk with
How you think people around you will feel about you?
*BHB, flirt, fun, amusing... what else?
The characteristics you love about yourself are?
*BHB, flirt, fun multi-talented XDD
On the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are?
*Direct at times, mood swing... goes mad once in a while.
The most ideal person you want to be like is?
*Crickey!!!(Steve Irwin)
For people that care and like you, say something to them.
*Smile!!! you look even better now... lets take a pic for that smile
Pass this quiz to 10 people that you wished to know how they feel about you.
1)dorcas.
2)winter
3)deborah
4)xiuqin
5)Miaoshan.
6)xueming.
7)jie ying.
8)pancy.
9)ruiqi.
10)joanne.
Who is no.6 having relationship with? [xue ming]
*me? hahaha... dun think she has one.
Is no.9 a male or female? [ruiqi]
*She female.
If no.7 and no.10 are together, will it be a good thing? [jie ying and joanne]
*They are both not lesbians ._.
What is no.2 studying about? [ winter ]
*I think she's working... so what she is studying?
When was the last time you had a chat with no.3? [ deborah ]
*last sat?.
What kind of music band does no.8 like? [ pancy ]
*how i know... love songs?.
Will you woo no.3? [ deborah ]
*YES ... have been trying for years
How about no.7? [ jieying ]
*we are close but not that close ... haha
Is no.4 single? [ xiuqin ]
*should be?
What is the surname of no.5? [miao shan]
*it is lim rite?
What's the hobby of no.10? [ Joanne ]
*having fun?
Does no.5 and no.9 get along well? [ miao shan and rui qi ]
*They should be close rite?.
Where's no.2 studying at? [ winter ]
*at her work place XD
Say something casual about no.1. [ dorcas ]
*hello darling... sister
Have you tried developing your feelings for no.6. [ xue ming ]
*nah ... she does not interest me actually she fun to tease XD
Where does no. 9 live at. [ rui qi ]
*A HDB flat around admiralty .
What colour does no.4 like? [ Jiayi ]
*dunno
Are no.1 and no.5 best friends? [ dorcas and miao shan ]
*No la. They don't know each other.
Does no.1 have any pets? [dorcas ]
*Nope, not that i remember ...!
Is no.7 the sexiest people in the world? [ jie ying]
*if she is mmmmmm she should be attached... haha..
What is no.6 doing now? [ xueming ]
*sleeping.
Those names that I mentioned above, please kindly do this quiz.
Thanks. :D
12:36 AM
this pain is killing me.
ok posting about what happen in session just now...
haha
it was a good one
at least for me... today ... i was trying to make jieying to set up the telescope... then i took her phone ... it was entertaining... i took it she tried to get it back... i walk away from the room...she grabbed me from behind and wanted to snatch it back from me... her reach is shorter ... so she cannot touch at all... the she wrap her hand around my neck trying to reach of it... haha ... very entertaining mah... so i continued letting her be like that and walked back to the room with her still doing that... i was like 2 hands and one leg out trying to move forward like a zombie while she put her hand around my neck choking me a little while reaching... it was really an entertainment... too bad no one gets to see it... now... cuz no one take picture... all too stunned over there... haha... then after a while ... scared she cry so return her... but at least it was fun and everyone had a laugh... haha ... how i wish someone was there... i wonder if that person is jealous... hahah ...
me and jieying arh.... quite close lah... i tend to bully her even though she older than me... i tease her and maybe flirt a little too much... making her think that i like her and wan her to be my gf some how... and i am still stunned over it...but then hor.... we very pei also ... cuz her action can complement what i wan do wif her... the teasing part and flirting part both... haha ... she like cats so can tease her on that... hahah i hope she not reading this though... she might wack me like just now for teasing her...haha... i dun act my age lah... so no good... need grow up more... hahah...jie ying... i got more things up my sleeve waiting to disturb you wif... haha
12:36 AM
this pain is killing me.
Thursday, September 18, 2008
currently very bored ... very sian now ... nothing to do ... watching neo angelique abyss ... very entertaining... haha out of manga to read is like that de....
hands now itchy ... itching to go fish ...current plan is fishing on sat at changi beach ... catch grouper, gurama, cheomeng , san seng fish, yellow tail, pufferfish, eel, cat fish and many more ... haha those that want to do wishing de please say so i will note then next time i call u if u want to go annot XD currently we typically go changi and sembawang to fish there is also pasir ris pay pond and another catch and release pond that can go and play at... those 2 need pay only...
pon school again... dunno lah ... just dun feel like going lor... go there do what.... haha ... need reason to go school de leh... now just trying to waste time... waste more than half the day already doing nothing... haha
sms bills this month sure burst... some of you may know why ... but then hor... it does not really matter... cuz i am still not paying for them ... haha ...but i think i will need to pay for the one talking to be on the other end... that person bill sure burst more than me de... haha i dun talk to ppl often by sms so if i burst by 300 that person will burst by 400 at least... hahaha ...
5:26 PM
this pain is killing me.
Thursday, September 11, 2008
interesting things
http://www.thunderbolts.info/thunderblogs/guest1.htmhttp://www.coolquiz.com/trivia/explain/docs/worth.asphttp://www.soundmedicine.iu.edu/archive/2003/quiz/humanWorth.htmltoo lazy to think and type of anything atm... haha but will say ....G902 PROFESSIONAL PROFILING 4351 words!!! i only intended to do 3500 max!!!!!
and here is the link to it...
http://www.geocities.com/nsknjh/ppm-71279-6.docnext stop pp poster...
6:26 PM
this pain is killing me.
Saturday, September 6, 2008
that smile on your face that you once had... after more than 3 years has passed... you have long lost that smile ... the sweet innocent smile that i fell in love with ... the smile that to me... was a joy... now it is a smile too late... there is none that can smile like that that is at the age of 15 anymore. to even those gals... meeting everyone was a joy ... a joy i can laugh and say is short lived. jie... i know you are definably not looking at this... but i wish you were... because only you understood what i meant... but do you still ...
DEB, DOR, WIN ... when the time comes... will u still be there for me?
if only you people know what i want ... it would have made things easier...
my memories are starting to mix together... memories and dreams... i cant even remember which is real which is dream. names... faces... dreams... actions... times together.... what we did... they are getting more fractional and more defused ... and i wonder when i will disappear...
the ability to corrupt and the ability to bring people to your cause ... i am sick of it ... this gift of gab... this gift... is so sickening... i cant stand trying to persuade myself anymore...
and since you want split personality ... then i give you split personality ... seek and you shall receive... speak and you shall die...
when we die- bowling for soup
11:09 AM
this pain is killing me.
what that you know are lies made to fool your mind. what that you see are delusions made to fool your . what that is truth are made by victors of those times. all in one day will these be what you follow blindly by. release yourself from these worldly thing. let your mind be yours alone.let your thought be mine alone. follow the way that you believe in. for the time is near and hauntingly near. riddles i make are strangely true. the price i paid was all too dear. who you once know is no longer the same. what you know as time has passed, only in death does it remain the same.sinister words said again and again, but who is truly sane. time will tell and and that day will come. for after all, only when u are dead will you be missed.
12:49 AM
this pain is killing me.
