this pain is killing me.
haiz...working ... leg so tired... standing all day... make little sales u can say... diy department... tat is just so me ... haha ... well... it is short term anyway... super short... haha 1 month nia... haha
this pain is killing me.
hmm... jolynn surprises me everyday ... and almost everytime... wonder why i say tat ... haha ... u noe rite... jolynn... though i do not know if u r reading this...it is so obvious but cannot yet handle the truth ... haiz... Oh well ... it does not really matter anyway ... i am guessing those tat r reading this is getting the wrong idea... haha ...
this pain is killing me.
damn... feel so much like shyt... try ... just try... to cry ... cry your heart out... really... when all the tear u can find is in your heart ... not able to come out... the pain is wat that hurts... sigh...
this pain is killing me.
bleah ... am i doing the right thing ... i should not have interfered ... i feel as if i am in deep shyt ... crap lah... i think i am doing the wrong thing ... to just help ... god ... stop putting me in this kind of situation... making me make decisions when all i do will make it worse ... hate u god ... bleah ...
this pain is killing me.
i just got a job ... (yay)? starting to work at 14mar ... 11 to 10 ... gonna be very busy after tat ... i wonder when do i work ... when do i stop ... when is my break ... haha ... it is soooooooo... crappy now tat i got a job... no more slacking days... haha ... no more cell n church most likely... but will try... miracle if i can last long enuf without saying so sain ... haha ... it is just so unexpected ... well i am off to bed now... i have done too much walking in 2 days le ... my legs need more rest ... haha ...
this pain is killing me.
this pain is killing me.
bleah... i love and care for everyone around me ... u can see it too don't u ... those tat will read it till the end i noe u can see tat ... i wanna laugh n cry ... at how weak i am ... i am close to forgetting ... my reason for doing so ... "love the world the way u want others to love you" by dunno who ... i keep saying to myself .. it is good it is good ... it is good to help ... it is good to share ... but ... ppl ... ppl take it for granted ... haiz ... it is my fault to keep giving ... but ... i can no longer stop myself ... for all i want to see is to see ppl smile ... love, smile n care ... the reward will come in time ... all in due time ... all in god's grace ... but is it worth it ... worth the suffering i am going thru now... haiz ... it is pitiful i say the world ... i pity the ppl ... pity everyone who horks hard ... for the purpose of making money... reminiscence of the past tat is long gone ... the past where tat which had joy in life ... now ... i see .. all i see ... is suffering ... ppl out race each other ... to out do each other ... to just be famous ... to be just richer ... where to poor becomes the stepping stones of the rich ... where the poors stay poor ... n the rich gets richer ...i want more money ... i need more money... tat is wat everyone wants ... i do too ... want the same ... each person's purpose for having money is different ... my purpose ... is ...to make the most money ... but keep the least ... have all the countries' citizenship ... to belong no where ... to ... a sombody tat is a nobody... for the purpose to help the poor... and let the poor rise up and be in same social status as the rich... the rich ... sees only wat they believe... it is proven ... http://www.livescience.com/humanbiology/070228_moral_outrage.html ... i can only say... damn to the rich ... unless u noe how to help the poor... haiz...
this pain is killing me.